Change Of Plans

I need some help.  James chooses to sleep on the floor.  For the past several nights I have been sneaking in after he is asleep to put him back in bed.  He prefers the floor.  What the heck.  He's like a little jungle boy...or something.

Ok, so we've had a change of plans.  James was scheduled for all of this tests tomorrow.  But both he and I have come down with something yucky.  I thought it was allergies because they cut down a cottonwood tree right behind us and I seriously thought I was going to die.  But he started running a low fever tonight so we will see what tomorrow brings.  Anyhow, we can't do the blood work and whatnot because we might get some false readings and then have to repeat them.  And I don't want to put him through that.  We will do it all once he is completely better.  However, we might have to go to the doctor tomorrow if he is not better and because Jude still isn't eating well.

Today was a discouraging day for a whole bunch of reasons that I won't bore you with.  I am desperately seeking the Lord's plan for us in all of this.  When it feels like things are chaotic and a big mess...what is it that He is wanting me to see or do?  I want to please Him.  I want to become more like Him in this.  But for reals yall, this is tough.  I don't want to look back and see that I missed an incredible opportunity to grow closer to Him and to grow in whatever ways He wants me to.  All I know to do is to trust Him one step at a time...one second at a time.

Jeremiah 29:11-"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future."

Psalm 56:3-When I am afraid, I will trust in You.